Adhuro kabita

बिछोड लाइ जिताउनु मा तिम्रो पनि हात होला,
पराइ भनी लत्‍याइदिने यो समाजमा चलन चल्‍यो,
हासुन जेल साथ दिइ सुन्‍यता मा छोडी जादा,
मदिराको साथसँगै सारा जिवन त्‍यसै ढल्‍यो,

तिमी एक मायाकी सागर,
म एक यात्रि हुँ प्रेमको,
तिम्रो मायाले तान्दैछ,
डोर्याउदै छ, अनि म डोहोरिदै छु,

तिम्रो ति आँखा नशाले भरिएको,
म मात्तिदै छु,ति नजरको नशामा,
होस हराउदै छ, मध्होसी छाउदैछ,
म बेहोसिदैछु, नब्युँझने आशामा,

मलाई लुक्न देऊ, तिम्रा ति गाँजलू आँखामा,
मलाई गुन्-गुनाउन देऊ, तिम्रो सूरीलो भाकामा,
मलाई मात्तिन देऊ, तिम्रो मायाको नशामा,
मलाई निदाऊन देऊ, तिम्रो कोमल ति काखमा,

Chandani

Despite the place,
That I'm now in,
This corner of my life,
That tells where I've been...

Despite the set backs,
That I face,
Or of the tears,
That leaves a trace...

Despite the time,
That distance brings,
Or life's little quirks,
And all other things,

Despite that fact,
That I still live,
Memories of a past,
I can't forgive...

Despite the rains,
That floods the trail,
Despite life's winds,
A force of gale...

Despite the moon,
Laying hidden behind,
The tracks I time,
Within my mind,

Despite harsh words,
Whispered aloud,
Or of the sun,
Behind the clouds,

Despite the way,
Life comes about,
My love for you,
There is no doubt...!!

(A creation of chandani)

Ohh yes life is the game.

Dream breaks, only when u break the promise,
You don’t realize when you jump on her kiss,
Yes it does hurt and the same way of pain,
Once you realize it, it will never repeat again,

Sadness and unsuccessful is what you think,
Kisses and happiness is there in the link,
Just you click on and cheer up your mood,
Leave that depression on the side for good,

When night starts, just look up that moon,
With the hope may she is looking the same,
You will find her face in it the one you love,
Life is to live with happiness that is the game…

Ohh yes life is the game.

-Ram

I was sort of hoping,

I was sort of hoping,
That you would come along,
Like the answer to a prayer,
And the music to a song.

Like the kind of thing that happens,
At a special place and time,
That will change our lives forever,
Like a fantasy of mine.

The fantasy was there before,
I ever knew your name,
And now that I have found you,
We will never be the same.

So, pardon, if I look at you,
Forgive me if I stare,
At the fantasy I knew before,
I saw you standing there.

For I was always hoping,
That you would come along,
Like the answer to a prayer,
And the music to a song

-Ram

A pain but the truth

A pain but the truth


A pain, a strange feeling, hurt and sorrows when somebody is leaving you Even if you know that he/she is leaving you for good sooner.

It was just a few years back, I left home and my family members all with fit and fine. She was the one who were bit worried of. She was fit and fine as well with a many smiles when I visit her last time in my vacation. I was just about to depart. She was standing beside my dad and weaving her hands, and her eyes were looking for me until I cross the main gate. As I could see, a mysterious smile in her face with painful tears in her eyes when I hugged her and did last goodbye kiss. She was acting as if we can never see each other. I look back from the main gate, she was still looking at me with the big glass in her eyes. Yeah she was my granny, the most beautiful woman in the world.

It was last week, my dad called me for an immediate visit to back home. I wondered and tried to ask for the reason. I found out my granny is seriously ill and been hospitalize since last 2 weeks. She wanted to see me for the last time. It was her desire to see me and talk few words before she leaves for heaven. I did not even noticed how quick I managed to get ticket and flown to Katmandu.

No one was in the airport, neither any of them were answering the phone. I was just panicking and at the same time trying to get home as quickly as possible. I took the taxi and rushed to head. Most of my family were silence with the full of tears in their eyes. Finally my younger brother came to me with full of tears and hugged me. Bag dropped from my hand and from nowhere my eyes came full of tears with a kind of strange pain inside. I reached there just about an hour after she left for her journey to heaven. She tried her best to wait for me but could not wait anymore. I could not even say last goodbye with my pleasure kisses. How UNFORTUNATE I was.

I just found her memories, her pictures all over the walls, an old eyeglass, her LAURI, and empty room. That is all. How UNFORTUNATE I was. I am SORRY granny. I am SORRY.

(Dedicated to my late granny)
Based on imagination

Ram

कठैबर....

चम्किलो त्यो सूर्यको किरण,
फेरि अन्धकार रातमा हराउन पुग्छ,
अनकन्टार त्यो कहालि लाग्दो दहमा,
निर्मल यि भावनाहरु डुब्न पुग्छ,

कठैबरा यि भावनाहरु चर्किन खोज्छ,
यि मनहरु त्यसै-त्यसै अतालिन पुग्छ,
आँखाहरु सुस्ताएर बन्द हुन खोज्छ,
बिश्वाशको धागो फेरि चुंडिएको जस्तो लाग्छ,

तर....., तर हे बिचलिएका भावनाहरु,
अतालिदै रोएको तिम्रो मनहरु,
सुस्ताएर अचल भएका आँखाहरु,
अनि अन्धकारमा हराएका दिनहरु,

पिर नगर,
ति हिमाल छुने सूर्यका किरणहरु,
भोलि फेरि फर्केर आउनेछन,
रात्रि त केवल मार्ग हो गन्तब्यको,
दिन भोलि सूर्य फेरि टक्र्याउने छन,

सपनिहरु फेरि किन भत्किन खोज्छन?
पाईलाहरु डगमगाई किन ढल्न खोज्छन?
आशाको दियोहरु बिस्तारै निभ्दैछ,
अनि आँशुका थोपाहरु परेली कै बाटो किन रोज्छ?

तर.....,तर हे भत्किएका सपनिहरु,
डगमगाई लर्बराई रहेका पाईलाहरु,
निभ्न लागेका दियोको अन्तिम किरणहरु,
अनि आँशुले भरिएका प्रिय परेलीहरु,

किन चिन्ता गर्छौ, किन पिर मान्छौ,
के बगेको अनमोल आँशुहरु नरोकिएला त??
किन निराश हुन्छौ, किन हरेस खान्छौ,
के भत्किएका सपनिहरु फेरि पुरा नहोला त???


[ Chamkilo tyo surya ko kiran,
Feri andhakar raat ma harauna pugchha,
Anakantar tyo kahali lagd daha ma,
Nirmal yi bhawana haru dubna pugchha,

Kathaibara yi bhawana haru charkina khojchha,
Yi mann haru tesai tesai atalina pugchha,
Aakha haru sustayera banda huna khojchha,
Biswas ko dhago feri chudiyeko jasto lagchha,

Tara hey bichaliyeka bhawana haru,
Atalidai royeko timro mann haru,
Sustayera achal bhayeka aakha haru,
Ani andhakar ma harayeka din haru,

Pirr nagara,
Ti himal chhune surya ka kiran haru,
Bhli feri farkera aaunechhan,
Ratri ta kebal marga ho gantabya ko,
Dinle bholi surya feri takraune chhan

Sapani haru feri kina bhatkina khojchha?
Paila haru dagmagai kina dhalna khojchha?
Aasha ko diyo haru bistari nibhdai chha,
Ani aasuka thopa pareli kai bato kina rojchha?

Tara hey bhatkiyeka sapani haru,
Dagmagai larbarai raheka paila haru,
Nibhna lageka diyo ko antim kiran haru,
Ani aashu le bhariyeka priya pareli haru,

Kina chinta garchhau, kina pirr manchhau,
K bageko anamol aashu haru narokiyela ta??
Kina niras hunchhau, kina hares khanchhau,
K bhatkiyeka sapani haru feri pura nahola ta??? ]

-Ram